A couple of you expressed intrigue over the above statement in my 25 Random Things post. Here's a little further explanation...
I'm not one that is looking for or finding a demon behind every rock. At the same time, I firmly believe there is a war at place that is not seen with the physical eye.
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.Ephesians 6:12
Every time, as I walk from my car to the main entrance, my insides are a jumbled, nervous wreck. Often, thoughts like, "You're a loser/a fake/ a terrible youth pastor" run through my mind.
It runs a little deeper than emotions, and I've come to the conclusion that the courtyard area is a place of battle for me.
I see three significant factors that play a role in this.
So does this internal battle take place at other schools (Wawasee, Fairfield, Bremen, Goshen, etc.)? It does, but not in the consistency and intensity I experience heading into NorthWood. That's why I think the next two factors are key.
Past - NorthWood is my High School. I graduated in 1995. The years there from 1991-1995 are filled with a lot of great memories, yet I was not following Christ in those years. Some of my biggest regrets took place inside the walls of that school. If they didn't take place inside the walls, the seeds of those regrets were either planted or watered there.
I, in a sense, find myself facing those "demons of the past" as I'm walking to the doors of the school. I think when you take my purpose in coming and mix it with my past, you find the third key element.
It's Personal - I want students grasp on and pursue all that God has for them. As I'm walking into that school, I'm coming face to face with an opportunity to encourage, push and challenge students toward an opportunity I missed out on during my high school days.
I take that personally. It's tempting to believe I need to try to earn points for my past by what I'm doing, and I have to denounce that mentality as I walk. I'm simply there to serve God where he's called me, and it's an awesome opportunity to do this in a place where I did not take advantage of that calling at a previous point in my life.
So, that's the battle. It's a positive battle. It reminds me that there's more at stake than just pushing for raising "good kids". I was a "good kid". I missed God in the midst of it, and those trips to my old High School can serve as great reminders that "the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world." (1 John 4:4)
Disclaimer: By no means do I believe NW High School to be evil grounds, nor do I believe the administration is responsible for any of the experiences outlined above. There are some incredible men and women of God that are a part of the Wa-Nee school system. My dad taught there for 87 years.






















